On Being 86

I’m old - not sure how that happened

Even less sure when it happened

There is no why - it was inevitable

What was Was.

Woke up a few weeks ago

Realized I couldn’t do what I had always done

Oh God, I’ve become a recluse Just like my mother, but at an older age

What is Is

I’m alone, how will I manage?

What should I do?

Age was never an issue for me

At 18, was excited to legally drink

At 40, was surprised - never expected to live that long

Retired at 60, on disability

What was Was

Got married in 2006, at age 68

Happiest year of my life

2019 - My husband Stanley passed

What’s next?

Should I care?

Accept?

Be Grateful?

Rejoice?

Choose or Don’t

Not sure it matters!

What will be will be